...way, way out. I have not really painted before. I completely admire people who can paint, but it's always seemed too hard for me. My husband bought me watercolors for Christmas a while ago and I never even really used them. For some reason it scares me to death. I have a problem that I think a lot of women have...it's called - if I can't do this really well the first time, I won't do it at all.
The problem with starting a new thing is...if it requires any patience to learn and I don't pick it up right away, I lose interest (kind of like math in school). It's not that I don't like what I'm doing or trying, but I've lost the ability to just play and have fun with whatever the new thing is and to just not worry about it.
So here's the thing - I don't want to be like that anymore. I'm trying new things this year and taking my chances and who cares if it's not perfect or even good - if I like it, I need to just keep practicing and having fun. So, I signed up for a painting layers class with Misty Mawn. I saw that my friend Teresa was doing Misty's portrait class (which seemed WAY too scary for me to do) and saw that she had a background class...which seemed less scary. So, I signed up and then felt sick to my stomach and then I watched her amazing videos and thought - "seriously, who do I think I'm kidding?" I watched again and freaked myself out even more...then I thought - what have I got to lose? So, I geared up and went into my studio and started painting. Messy, smeary, blendy painting and you know what - I LIKED IT and you know what else - I DIDN'T EVEN CARE WHAT THE END RESULT WAS because it was just FUN!! So, I'm putting myself WAY out there and showing you one of my backgrounds. I don't know what I'll use it for (maybe a collage - my other new favorite thing) - it's layered paints and a stamped fleur de lys and I sort of like it, but I REALLY liked making it...so which is more important?